…it all went wrong.
The day after my last post, the one with the happy family scene with frog biscuits… we lost himself. Colin.
It’s been over seven months now. Please don’t think I am now ok. I don’t believe I will ever be ok, I’m just not going to talk about it here. (I am talking about it elsewhere, and if you really want to know how that’s going, then drop me a message and I will give you a link)
So now, life is changing dramatically, and I don’t know which way we are going, and amongst everything else, I pondered the blog and whether it was time to delete it.
But then something happened…someone (no one I know) pinned a picture of mine on pinterest and it was this one and when I clicked on it, and read the blog post it relates to, its just an ordinary day in August 2014, when we went to the beach. A snapshot of our life.
And it struck me then, that it was brilliant. Our life was brilliant.
Other people climb mountains or visit iconic sites, but for us the adventure was being self sufficient, self reliant… the journey was about learning new skills, the pleasure was having done it ourselves. We took time to enjoy the smaller but beautiful things, like breakfast on a sunny beach, a bonfire on a winters day, a home grown meal, watching shooting stars lying on the loungers in the dark night garden, picking up beach glass……
but mostly…time…we took a lot of time to be together. I know that not everyone will understand, and I don’t care, because we did. We got it.
So no.. I’m not going to delete the blog , I’m going to leave it in place, holding the images and chatterings of some of our time. And by and by I shall add to it; more of what we started.